My Little Fudge, My darling doggy is no more Options

[ChocoFudge]

I have a beautiful morkie called Chocolates whom i love dearly. Unbeknownst to us she mated with her brother yorkie and low and behold a little later 3 little pups were born in October 2011. I fell in love with little Fudge from birth. He was half the size but so "strong" and definitely active. I decided i will keep him and make him my own. I gave him love, attention and Mommy Chocolates also delivered him on my bed time and again ... i didnt know the reason
This week i though little fudge at 5 weeks was constipated. I feel in love with this dog remember from birth. Now yesterday he was suffering what i thought was constipatin. I took him to the vet. He had heart failure. And died in our arms last evening. I never felt this pain before at the moment of death it felt like i was ripped apart and i could only scream in agony with him..... Will the pain everygo? I see and think of him ... and this morning walking into work i actually smelt his little puppy breath... I'm really heartsore and raw...

[moon_beam]

Hi, ChocoFudge, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Fudge. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Losing little Fudge in the beginning of his earthly journey is truly very heartbreaking.

Although you may realize there was nothing that could have been done to change what happened with your little Fudge this is little consolation to the deep grief you are feeling in your heart thinking of all the things that could have and should have been - - a long and healthy life shared with you. I hope in time you will come to know that your beloved Fudge is eternally grateful to you for all the love you shared with him during his brief earthly journey with you. Even though he is no longer physically with you, his sweet Living Spirit is always with you continuing to share your earthly journey. He is forever in your heart and your memories - - he is forever a heartbeat close to you.

Thank you so much for sharing your beloved Fudge with us. Please know you are among friends here who truly do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, ChocoFudge, and that I look forward ot knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[ChocoFudge]

Hi, ChocoFudge, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Fudge. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Losing little Fudge in the beginning of his earthly journey is truly very heartbreaking.

Although you may realize there was nothing that could have been done to change what happened with your little Fudge this is little consolation to the deep grief you are feeling in your heart thinking of all the things that could have and should have been - - a long and healthy life shared with you. I hope in time you will come to know that your beloved Fudge is eternally grateful to you for all the love you shared with him during his brief earthly journey with you. Even though he is no longer physically with you, his sweet Living Spirit is always with you continuing to share your earthly journey. He is forever in your heart and your memories - - he is forever a heartbeat close to you.

Thank you so much for sharing your beloved Fudge with us. Please know you are among friends here who truly do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, ChocoFudge, and that I look forward ot knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[ChocoFudge]

Thank you so much for your wonderful comforting words. Just being with people who understands the deepness of my grief helps. I have had comments such as " It's just a dog" and incredulous looks. I can read their faces.. how can i care so much about a dog?? But the vastness of grief i felt when i saw him die i cannot explain. I thank you for your words and comfort.

[ChocoFudge]

This is just so painful i don tknow if i can bear it!!!

[moon_beam]

Hi, ChocoFudge, this grief journey is one of the hardest and most painful experiences we can ever know on this side of eternity. There are so many different emotions we experience that seem to overwhelm us all at one time we can feel like we are losing our minds. This grief journey is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride.

Unfortunately there is no easy way to travel this grief journey, ChocoFudge. There is no fast forward or delete button to press to speed up the process or eliminate it. This grief adjustment journey can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time in your own way and in your own time.

Sadly the people who are closest to us are sometimes the least empathetic to our needs when we experience a loss. Our society just barely acknowledges the grief of a loss of a human family member or friend, but once the funeral is over with people are expected to carry on with their lives as best they can in a way that will not embarrass or bother other people around them. Although professional counselors now realize that the physical loss of a beloved companion is identitical to the physical loss of a human family member or friend, our society does not acknowledge that the loss of a companion animal is worthy of any form of acknowledgement.

The good news is that you are not alone in your journey. Each of us here DO understand what you are going through, and we ARE here for you for as long and as often as you need us. You will NEVER hear from any of us "it's only a . . . " You will NEVER feel like you have bothered us. You will ALWAYS receive comfort, support, encouragement, and hope from each of us as best we can share it with you.

ChocoFudge, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Cheryl83]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet, precious pup

Losing a beloved companion is one of the most difficult things we can go through. It's no wonder you're hurting so much. I know the feeling ... it feels like your insides have been ripped from you. It feels like it hurts to even breathe. You have a constant knot of ache in your stomach. This is all normal during the early stages of grief. I promise you that it will become less intense in time. Ignore the people who say, "It's only a dog" -- these people don't understand. They've never been blessed with the bond with an animal like we have. And poor them.

Just take each day as it comes. Scream if you need to scream. Cry if you need to cry. Do whatever it is you feel you need to do.

We're here when you need us.

Try to take care of yourself. You'll be in my thoughts.

Cheryl

[Hermy's Mommy]

Dear ChocoFudge,

I'd like to offer my condolences as well. I'm so very sorry for your loss. The pain is unbelievable, I know. When I lost my Hermione two weeks ago, I thought I would never stop crying and sobbing in anguish. It's okay to cry and scream. Sometimes it may even feel like you can't breathe anymore.

I'm sorry you heard those insensitive comments like "it's just a dog." I heard those comments too. It's especially painful when family and close friends say those things, people you expected to be more sympathetic. I heard, "she's just an animal" and "just get another rabbit" and "just move on already." I don't think those people will ever understand what we are feeling and the strong bond we have with our beloved animal companions. I have had to distance myself from those people while I'm grieving. Fortunately, the wonderful, supportive people on this forum have helped me tremendously.

Again, I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your little Fudge are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hermy's Mommy

[BonniesMom]

Please accept my sympathy for the loss of your dear Fudge puppy. And I know he was not "just a dog". They are never just a dog. They are living, thinking, loving, feeling beings who deserve our love and respect. I feel sorry for people who can't love animals the way we do. It's very sad that they can't experience the joy we have experienced with our precious fur-babies.

Your grief is normal and shows just how special Fudge was to you. I'm sure that in his short life he felt how much he was loved. I'm thankful to know that if he could only have a short time here, it was with someone who loved him.