Hubby's Meltdown

It broke my heart on Saturday afternoon. My husband had his own meltdown, and kept crying that he killed his best friend and buddy. He sobbed in my arms for an hour. He kept asking for Arlo's forgiveness for having to do this, and then yelling at God and telling him off for taking away his friend. It was so sad.

Major Meltdown

It will be one month this Wednesday that Arlo left us, and I had the worst meltdown last night. I went to bed, and as I lay there I realized how much I missed having him laying on me while I slept (my "protector") and I started crying uncontrollably for almost an hour. Needless to say I had various nightmares all night lone (at least Arlo wasn't in them). Even now as I (try) to type, my eyes are tearing up. I try to tell myself that Arlo realized we have so much love to give to the down-and-out, and he wanted another animal to be able to share in it. I am not ready for another furkid.

My Heart Is Breaking

My husband and I have had to make the heart wrenching decision to have our beloved cat Arlo euthanized. Today is Tuesday and the appt is for Friday moring. Arlo is not even 3 years old; he was a stray off the street when we got him about a year and a half ago. In December 2005 he was diagnosed with FELV after getting very sick very fast. With the help of our wonderful vet, steroids, antibiotics and tons of TLC, we brought him back to his old self.

Then 2 weeks ago, he went off his food, and lost almost 2 pounds in that time. Last Saturday we brought him back to the vet. I could not bear to have it done then, and because he has bounced back before, I wanted to give him one more chance. Unfortunately nothing is working this time around, and as much as it is hurting us, it is only fair to him as he doesn't have any quality of life. He is not in pain, just very lethargic, no energy and a great difficulty walking (due to not eating).

So this morning I made the final call to the vet.

Arlo will be at peace and free of any discomfort, and as much as it is hurting us, he is the important one.