My Mom's Egghead Is Gone

I haven't posted in awhile but my mom lost her beloved greyhound, Egghead. This is hurting her so much and me as well. She adopted Egghead from the Greyhound Rescue because no one else would. He turned out to be the sweetest ex-racer I ever knew. She does have three other dogs and they are greiving as well. I told her about this site and I hope that she comes here because everyone here understands the loss we all go through. This is very hard for her and her other dogs. She said he had a pressence in her house and she notices it now that is not there physcially. I hope Indy was there to greet his old friend but all this has brought up his death in me. There is so much I should have done to remember him but was in so much shock that I didn't even think of it. My mom did, she had the time to get the the little things I wish I did. If she comes and writes I know everyone here will help her with her loss. Egg, Indy and every pet here that has been lost will help you wait for your mommy!! We love you and we will all miss you very much. You gave so much and asked for so little in return . . . I am glad you and my mom found each other and made each other happy!!! Run in the grass you great big Egghead!!!
Love your aunty, Chrissy and her gang

Feeling Guilty

I don't post very often but it seems lately I am feeling guilty of an adoption that went wrong. I wanted/needed another dog similiar to my boy that passed away and went and found a dog at a local shelter. I was so happy and excited. My kids wanted another dog. But 3 long weeks with a dog that we lived around because of undisclosed illness I couldn't trust him around my children. My cats and other dogs were terrified of him and he tried to get aggressive with my husband so we got on the phone with rescues. No avail. No one wanted to talk to me or couldn't take him. I couldn't risk my children getting hurt. My vet was out and the rescue that kinda helped me ran me through the coals. I am not a vet and don't know why my vet did what he did for diagnosing this dog. Any way we ended having to take him back to the shelter. I didn't want to but for my children I did. I feel super guilty. I am not a bad person, in fact I wish I had a ranch and a lot of money to help animals. Granted our society doesn't really look at animals as part of a family but a possesion. This guilt leads to my boys death. Being a woman, when my hormones go wacky, it brings his death to the surface and I cry. I want him back. I guess I have made it easy on me by putting pictures up everywhere I am. I try to remember the good times. But the guilt doesn't seem to be leaving. I come here and I cry and feel for everyone here at LS. In a way I am sorry we had to come together in this time of sorrow. I also don't know if the sick dog got a new home or went to Rainbow Bridge to meet up with my boy. I hope he is not mad at me. As the title says I am feeling guilty. I just needed to say it somewhere. Thanks for listening.
ChrissyW

Finding A Good Vet!

Hi everyone,
I am glad there is a part of this site for something a little lighter than what we all here have been going through!!! I need some help in finding out how to locate a good vet. The last two vets I am not sure about. I don't know if I should stay with the vet that diagnosed my last dog, Max, who I had to give up or start the search again. I am very confused. It has been a good time with my new adoptee but sad to have to give up Max. Does anyone have any suggestions of how to research vets? I would really appreciate it!!!
Thanks to everyone here you are great!!!
ChrissyW

New Pet, New Problems

I need some serous help. I adopted a new pet. I went to the local animal shelter and found a dog I liked and went back to see if he was still there and he was and I got to be with him for a little while until I adopted. I got him home and he was scared but started to get along. I made an appt with my vet to get him updated on shots and low and behold that morning of the appt. he cesured. Not once but twice. So now I rush him to the vet and a lot of tests and money later I get he has hip displaysha and has epilepsy. I am torn. I don't know what to do. I can't afford insurance or the surgery for Hip displaysha and I don't want him to suffer. I feel like I was taken thru the ringer. The german shepherd rescue says the displaysha is nothing to worry about. But I have kids. Do I want them to see this wonderful personality dog be in pain and can't walk? Do I listen to the vet and give him a chance? Does this get worse? Do I take him to the shelter? If I do, he will be put down. Do I do that to him? Help, I don't need these decisions now. I don't want to go through what I went through putting my Indy down when this one is so young. Do I put all my other animals thru this crap? I am at a loss. I emailed best friends to see if they might have any solutions. I don't know if that was the right thing to do. In a way I feel raped! Thanks for listening I hope this helps me and I hope I can once again do the right thing. I hate these decisions.
ChrissyW

Just Missing My Boy Still

I want to say thank you to everyone at this site. I have stayed away for awhile due to the fact that it hurts when I come here because it makes my loss real. I don't want it to be real anymore. I feel for anyone who does come here . . . it is hard. Lately, I really don't want to feel this pain. He was a big part of my life and lately I have been going backwards thinking maybe I did hurt him and thats why he had to go. Recently my daughter has been telling me that she really misses him. I don't blame her. I miss him incredably. Our new dog, she has only been with us since March or April, does so many things my old man did. It helps but I also look at my other dog who spent all her life with him and sometimes I can see lonliness. I am to the point I want another dog. It doesn't matter how big or how little I want the void to be gone. Of course, My husband, the level head right now, says no due to the fact it is too much. I guess with a house full of animals (2 cats, 2 dogs, 2 hampsters and 20-30 fish) another dog is too much. When I first got my Indy he was 2 months old and when we met I held him and he just went to sleep. Well I got the okay from mom and took him home. I took him to my dad's house and on the way he threw up his breakfast. I was then christened mom. He whinned at night but would never sleep in my bed with me. He went everywhere I went, well except on an airplane! When will it stop feeling like yesterday he was taken from me? He is in my thoughts everyday. Sometimes, I just stare at his pictures. His leash and collar are still on my dressor and every once in a while I smell them for him. It reminds me he needed a bath. I just miss him. What do I say to my daughter? It hurts but I answer her honestly . . . I miss him too. And I think to myself, you'll never know how much I miss him. Indy, my BooBoo Bear, I miss you . . . I know you are whole now and waiting for us. But there will always be a hole in my heart that will never completely heal. I love you with all my heart and miss you terribly. Do me one favor, Indy, just enjoy being whole again and young again and just promise me that you will be there when it is my time because I will need you once again as I did and do in this physical life.
Mommy misses you, greatly.
Be happy my boy, Thinking of you and missing you.
Mom (ChrissyW)