Going On 4 Days Missing..., I am heart broken Options

[alleria31]

My wonderful cat 'Bubba' got out of my home on Sunday evening July 22nd sometime between 9:10pm and 10:20pm. My other cat Bella also got out, but I recovered her about 5 hours later. Here we are coming on 4 days missing and no sign of my sweet baby boy. I am beside myself with guilt and grief. I feel like a horrible person for this happening in the first place.

What happened was, the place I am currently living has no dryer vent. So the dryer hose is stuck out the window of the laundry room while the dyer is running. The laundry room door is always kept shut whenever the window is open. I am so paranoid about the cats getting lose that I even keep the winter storm window in all year around so I remove it and replace it each time I am doing laundry. Well, Sunday night on my last load of laundry either I did not get the door completely shut or somehow Bubba managed to get it open. Their little box was sitting in front of the door so he could have easily stood on top of the lid. I don't know what exactly happened and at this point it really does matter.

I have looked everywhere I can think of. Posted an ad in the local paper, on Craigslist, gave flyers to the neighbors and hung them around my neighborhood. Offering a reward for his safe return. I have looked every single day after work and on my lunch hour if it allows. I have slept in the laundry room for the last 3 nights with the window cracked enough to hear any movement outside.

The last two nights the wet cat food I had set out was gone early in the evening, during the brief time I actually did fall asleep. Then the last three nights at 4am I hear the glass bowls moving around on the cement and my heart fills with hope only to have me peak out the window and see a possum happily eating the food. So my plan B for tonight is to find myself an observation point and stay away and observe the food bowls no matter how bad my body is fighting me for sleep.

The worst part of this whole situation is we are moving!! I can't even think about that right now, I don't even want to talk about it. I can't just move and leave him behind of there is a possibility he is still out there waiting to come back to his loving family.

Tonight I have an appointment with Hilary Reniassance as I have seen a few others on this board have used her services with success. I am excited and this gives me hope that perhaps tonight will be the night and my baby will be home and I can continue on with our moving excitement. Right now I am cringing every time someone I work with brings it up.

I just want my baby home, and at this point I would give anything.